Update!

Dear Family and Friends,

Sorry it is so long inbetween posts, but when I sit down to write these I'm usually on for awhile and recently I just haven't had the time for that! But I am going to try and update you now and then make more frequent posts after this...

So...

We are trying to get our house ready to put on the market! Tomorrow we having the carpets cleaned and the house is getting pretty bare as Jake and I just rented a storage until yesterday and have taken 3 trips there w/ the van loaded up! I think we probably have at least 20 boxes of stuff and several pieces of furniture. Though we plan to move more here in the next couple days. Our realtor is coming Wednesday to look at the house and give us suggestions! I hope we have done a good job on our own though and don't have much more to do because we are all tired due to how much we have been working on the house!

Though this evening we got out! Went to McDonald's and took the kids! They have a play place and Jacob, Sara, and I played Uno while we ate and the kids played/ate! It was nice to get out and not have to worry about any house stuff!

Well, I couldn't finished this last night, so here I go again!

Today we are having our carpets cleaned. They will be here in about 2ish hours. Not sure what we are going to do exactly while they are here, though we can leave, but I'm not sure that's what I want to do. Most of our important stuff is out of site or in rooms that they won't be cleaning! I might just stay and see if Sara wants to get out. I can make David go down for a nap and have Anna do some art projects or something. Though they said it would take 2 to 3 hours to clean the carpets, then 1 to2 hours for them to dry. So that's apporx. 3 to 5 hours we have to be occupied some way and not messing w/ the carpets too much! Jacob should be home about 4 so he'll probably be home before they finished unless they are pretty quick...

Sara and I got the house cleaned up today the rest of the way though...Well at least we got the stuff off the carpets so they can be cleaned! There are still odds and ends that we just can't figure out what to do w/. Might go to Michael's and see if I can get some baskets to put stuff in that we still use, but they don't really have a place!

Jacob and I ran some more stuff to the storage facility yesterday! A couple bookshelves, and a table and more boxes. We rented a place Saturday and took two loads and our last load we took after thier office was closed and we got stuck inside the fence because the gate wouldn't open for us. Jacob had to go up to the peoples house and tell them...apparently they are still having problems w/ the gate because it was permanently up yesterday when we went.

Another adventure we had was yesterday. David keeps finding ways to get out of the house to the front yard. And yesterday he got out and was in the van...he got into the pens and markers that I have in there and wrote all over my dash board/console, and the passanger seat and window. I was not happy! Actually I really wanted to cry I was so angry! Fortunately the Oops! that we have got almost all of it cleaned up and the Advantage spray worked well too! We have to keep the van locked from now on and the front door alarmed, though I'm not sure that's how he actually got out, through the front door that is!

Anna starts school in two weeks. We aren't ready yet! we don't have any of her school supplies and we aren't even sure that she will be attending this school the whole year since we will hopefully be moving here in the next couple weeks! And we haven't been working on a get up schedule. The school has changed it's hours from 8:20 to 8, so that means we need to be up at 6:30 instead of 7 like before. I usually sleep in till 8:30 or 9 and I'm going to have to get used to getting up just after John's last feeding instead of going back to bed. I'm not really looking forward to this! The whole getting up early thing that is! We'll see how it goes! The kids aren't used to getting up either, so this will be interesting for all of us!

John is doing well...He has started cooing and smiles a bunch and he's even laughed a few times! He is getting bigger every day and I almost need to move him up to 3-6 month clothes though not quite yet! He was almost 12 pounds at his 2 month visit and 21 1/2 inches tall! He and David have doctor appointments scheduled for September 27th. Anna has a well visit on the 23rd at 3:30, just after she gets out of school!

Well, I'm gonna wrap this up...can't really think of anything else to talk about though I am sure there is more, so I'll try and post it when I think of it! God Bless!

Getting Ready to List the House

Wow, sorry it's been so long since I posted my last entry...

We have been so busy, w/ barely a break...what with taking care of the kids, chores, and now trying to get the house looking tip top shape to put it on the market, there is barely any time to sit down and spend writing on my computer...however...Sara and I just got some more painting done this morning and we've all had lunch. David is suppose to be down for a nap and Anna is watching the show I put on for David to get him to fall asleep. John has been sleeping for awhile and should be up soon, but I thought I would sit and write for awhile and get you all caught up!!!

Let's see...since the 24th of June, we've done a ton! Mainly working on the house. We got both bathrooms painted and even had some tile installed in the upstairs bathroom. I got two walls painted myself Monday and today my sister helped me get almost the entire livingroom painted and hallway to the Masterbed and Office. The only things left to paint are the remaining two walls to the livingroom and down the stairs to the hallway. We aren't going to paint the downstairs hallway or we would have to end up painting all of downstairs and I'm just not up for that! The ceilings in the livingroom and kitchen were painted last Saturday. Turned out to be an all day event though I had actually hoped to get all the painting done that day. It was really hard to get the ceiling cause it is so high in places and was even tough for Jacob, who is over 6 ft. Oh well at least we got it done!!!

Jacob's Mom Vonnie was here from the 26th-29th. I think we had a good visit! We went to the Denver Downtown Aquarium and got a membership. Even Sara is on it cause the kids (David, Jade, John) are free till they hit 4. So that was cool! We are probably going to go there Saturday. We all need a break from all the house work and the kids really need to get out!

I don't really have any more details for the last many weeks. It was actually like the first week of July that Jacob made the decision to get out of the Military and thus decided to try and get the house on the market ASAP cause we are staying here, but we need a bigger house! It was my idea to get the house on the market by the 1st of August and if we bust our buns we may actually get that accomplised. I'm hoping to have an 'Open House' the first week we are on the market what w/ everything being newly painted and cleaned and the house being to decluttered. Hopefully we will get an offer right off!!! Please pray for us in this whole process cause many of our feelings are being bruised due to lack of focus!!! Anyway, There really isn't a whole lot more that needs to be done! We keep getting more and more accomplished every day and it's only a matter of a few more dedicated days and we should be able to get everything in order and call our realtor to take a look at the place and hopefully get some more suggestions for what to do w/ the house to get it to sell quicker!!!

Anyway, I need to go...David needs some attention. Hope you are having a great summer!

Getting Out

It has been awhile since I've actually gotten out...actually we all seem to be suffering from a bit of cabin fever as it's usually too hot to go outside and there isn't much space for the kids to play in their room (not that they don't have space, just not enough to run off all their energy). We didn't get out early today...actually we weren't out till almost Noon. Went to lunch at a couple different places and then went to Cold Stone so Jacob and Anna could get a treat (Jacob shared with David). I opted for Cinnabons Carmelatta Chill instead of ice cream which I got when we left the Cherry Creek Mall.

The Cherry Creek Mall is where we finally went to...we walked around a little at first and I got a couple tank tops at the Motherhood store (only maternity tops seem to be long enough to fit me properly). I was pleased to fit into a Lg. and have decided that I am going to start working out on Monday so hopefully I'll melt off even more pounds quicker!!! ~~~The kids finally got down to the play food after 2 and I brought John over to feed him because he was suppose to eat at 2. However once we sat down and John was still fast asleep I decided that I would just wait to feed him till he got up which was a good idea because at about 2:20 one of the security gaurds came around and asked everyone to leave so that the cleaning crew could come in...I was really ticked cause we had just sat down and the kids had been waiting to play and now they would have to wait another 15-20 to get back in. We walked around a bit and finally came back after they were done. The kids probably played for a good 45 min. to an hour. Then we left cause David didn't want to keep his socks on. (I had taken David to the Doctor on Monday to find out about his major blistering/peeling feet. The Dr. said that he probably has foot and mouth disease which is very common for this time of year in young kids and it should clear up soon. However, it only seems to be getting worse...especially on his feet. I'm thinking of takeing him back in again this next week because it really seems to bother him.)

After the Mall we went to the Wizard's Chest. Sara was very excited and we spend probably an hour there! Looked around at all the cool stuff! I went right to the stuffed animal section... They have really neat and unique things that you can't find at a regular store! I found a really cute 'Gotta Get a Gund' dragon in light boyish colors (blues, greens). I got it for John. Jacob found a really cool Batman utility belt for David. And Anna got two princess type figurines to match some of the others that we have already collected! Jacob wanted one of the levitron things that he looked at before, but they were all sold out. He was bummed! I got a really cool pen that was carved on top into a frog head and the cool thing about it is that I can just unscrew the cap on the bottom and insert new pen ink cartridges when the one in it runs out! It's really cute!!!

After there we stopped by Timbuk Toyz to look for a prince for Anna to use w/ her princesses, but they didn't have any. So we went home...

I sat down to eat a cinnamon roll really quick before I needed to feed John. Jacob turned on Oblivion, now He and Sara are playing 'Perfect Dark'. The kids are in bed and I was checking e-mail, eBay, and a few other things. Will be heading to bed after this entry...

Our realtor, Vicki, came over for dinner Thursday night. I told her what I had in mind for when we put the house on the market and she gave us a more tips on what we could do with the house. However, all that will become much more extensive once we actually decide to put the house on the market! I guess our grounds will really be an issue if we put the house on the market in the spring, but not so much if we do it in the winter since everything will already be dead and we won't have to keep it alive, which we are struggling to do this summer!

Jacob is still trying to figure out what to do with his Career! Still checking into Military and persueing the Government job outside of the Military...Hopefully we'll know more by the middle of next month. He has a meeting on July 12th that will maybe open a few more interesting door within the Military...We'll keep you posted! But either way we look at it we are definitely selling this place by next summer!!!

Well, I need to go, it's almost 10 and we have Church tomorrow, so I better hit the sack...Hope you are having a great summer! :O)

Sooooo Tired...

I forgot just how tired one can get when you have a new little one! I thought I'd be fine because I occationally don't get the full 8 or more hours of sleep, sometimes only 5 and seem to function just fine, but after nights and nights of having to get up every three hours for anywhere from half hour to 1 hour incriments I'm am sooo tired! Naps during the day are out! Especially because a during the day nap usually just makes me crankier! And David doesn't always take naps so I can't just leave him running around the house unsupervised! Anna would be fine, oh well!

And along with being tired I think I have lost a little of my memory capacity. I have become a total space cadet, and can hardly remember what we did earlier in the day let alone the day before or earlier. The hours just seems to mess into eachother and all I can think about is what I can get done in the short times between baby feedings or that maybe I can get a little rest in before I need to get some other chore done. Hopefully once John starts sleeping through nigths I'll be albe to regain some energy and sanity. Right now I just want to go back to bed, but the kids are up and I need to get them some breakfast.

My Mom arrived yesterday! My sister, Jade, and Anna went and picked her up at the Airport. I think her plane got in earlier than they said it should because when I called about the time they should be finding her at bagage claim they were already half way home. We spent the evening pretty much just vegging, though Mom, Sara, Jade, and I went to blockbuster to rent some movies. We got "Pink Panther", "Auquamarine", and a suspense thriller w/ Demi Moore in it, not sure what it's called. Then Jacob and I went to Safeway and picked up some tomatoes, salad, and a banana creme pie. I got out some extra cash so that we could pick up the pizza that I had ordered at Cici's. There pizza is really good and inexpensive, the only drawback is they don't deliver. But at least they are only about a five min. drive away!!!

I'm not sure what our plans are for the next few days!? Friday Jacob might get out of work early and we'll all go to lunch at the Chinese Buffet, and Saturday I know for sure that we are going to the Renaissance Festival. Only I just realized in the last week that our van is at max capacity now that we have John so we are going to have to carivan. Not sure who will go in which vehicles yet...

I have started to list stuff at the Thrift Store again! I actually want to list stuff every Tuesday and Thursday this month. Though I'm afraid that they might get too many toys and I won't be able to list anymore. I could just stick w/ clothes, though I can only list 5 at a time and I have way more clothes than just 5. But at least I'll only have to come up w/ 7 more items to make the full 12 I can list.

I'm also thinking of listing some things on the Colorado Garage Sale site. Not exactly sure everything that I want to list yet, but I have two for sure that I'm gonna take pictures of. Sort of a pre-moving on-line garage sale. I don't have to list everything at once, but I would like to! I might just list the first two and after our Realtor comes on Tuesday to take a look at the house then we'll know what more we need to pair the house down to before we have our first open house. Not sure when we are going to list the house just yet. There are some repairs that we need to make before we list because we want the house to sell ASAP. Can't afford to get a new house with this mortage too!

Well, I need to go for the day, not really much more to talk about. Hope you are all doing well! Would love to hear from you! God Bless! :O)

Hard, Late Night

11:30 is about when we finally got home...

Yesterday evening after I fed John, about 6:30, I joined Jacob outside on to swing to watch the kids jump on the trampoline. But when I got out there I noticed that Toby wasn't acting like himself. He was walking around all drunk like, and could barely support himself on his back legs, his head hanging almost to the ground. I thought maybe one of his hips broke again, so I told Jacob to check him out, but when Jacob called him, it took him a really long time to respond because he could barely get up. I decided that we needed to get him into the vet ASAP. Anyway, it was 7pm and unfortunately they were closed, but they had a phone number for an Emergancy place, that I called and they said to bring him right in. We left the kids w/ Sara and headed in. After examination it looked as though something was seriously wrong w/ Toby, possibly a total system failure (w/ little to no chance of recovery), liver failure (wide margin of recovery depending on the extent of damage, but w/ major expense and long term mediation and medical treatment), or possibly a galbladder obstruction (w/ chance for recovery after surgery). Though most of the things we heard from then on out were all very limited and didn't really answer any questions that could really help us make a decision on what to do. (The vet seemed to be leaning more towards advanced liver failure.) We ended up going w/ more bloodwork, which only confirmed that something was pretty wrong w/ him, but w/out more bloodwork, ultrasounds, and a belly tap (they found a large mass of fluid in Toby's belly), they couldn't really tell us anymore. And all of these just to find out what was possibly wrong w/ him would amount to over $500 and that didn't neccessarily mean that they would actually find out what was wrong w/ him. After much talk w/ the Vet, Jake's Mom Von, and together, we finally decided that we should just let Toby go. He seemed to be suffering so much and Jacob made a point that we didn't want him to suffer anymore by having them poke and prod him until they maybe found out what was wrong w/ him. Anyway, I couldn't really think anymore about what to do and just wanted to take Toby home, so we decided that after a fluid flush to try and make Toby more comfortable we would take him home so everyone could spend a little more time w/ him and say goodbye and we could take him back the next day. But while we were waiting on the fluids, Jake and I talked some more and decided that it would just be better go ahead w/ it right then because it wasn't right for us to make Toby suffer more just because we wanted to spend more time w/ him. I couldn't stay in the room, but Jacob did. It was hard enough for me to just stand outside the room and barely hear what was going on inside. I could hear a bunch of sniffling and nose blowing and wanted to go in because I could tell Jacob was hurting, but I didn't want to go in there w/ Toby still in the room. When Jacob finally came out we just held eachother for awhile. This whole thing was so sudden! We loved Toby so much, I couldn't even go to sleep last night w/out a massive dose of my pain meds. And then my heart hurt so much I thought I would't be able to sleep last night at all. But I finally did.

This morning for me was hard because I had to tell Anna that Toby had died (David didn't understand). She and I cried for awhile. But even though Anna seemed to have gotten over it quickly, I haven't. I keep seeing things of Toby's or thinking about what he looked like before he died and I keep breaking down crying. The afternoon has been better, but I still can't stop thinking about him and if we made the right decision...

Spurts

Hello!

Sorry I haven't written much lately, but things have been rather busy around here...But by busy I mean spurts of business filled by half hour sessions of baby feedings! I have gotten John down to a schedule of eating about every 3 hours. And at night he'll go for about 4 or 5 hours once he's had his approx. 9pm feeding.

Monday I spent about 2 hours waiting to get into and 3 hours actually in the ER. Thought I had a more pressing matter than it actually turned out to be and got some medication for the actual problem. I will be doing a follow up w/ the Midwives on Friday just after John's 2 week appointment. Hopefully I'll be able to figure out why it's taking me so long to recover this time around! But the whole ER thing really sucked because Monday was Jacob and My 7th Anniversary. Spending 5 hours at the Hospital wasn't my idea of a good way to spend our Special Day together. But we did get to go out to dinner afterwards and Sara watched the kids, including John later that evening so that we could go and see X-Men III. We had wanted to go and test drive cars for the fun of it, but we didn't get to do that! Oh well, maybe some other day!

We've been running around doing errands. Got some hoses w/ holes to get some extra water to sections of the lawn that we just can't seem to keep green! Today I took the kids w/ me to Target and K-Mart. We were in and out pretty quick and got exactly what I went in for!

Tomorrow I need to take John in to get registered in DEERS. It's our insurance... I also decided that I wanted to list some items at the Thrift store on Base and have those all ready in the van to take in tomorrow as well. Might get a few groceries too, depending on the time. Might need to feed John again.

Anyway, I had better go. Need to get something to drink and go and feed John here in about 20 min. Jacob will be heading to bed soon, he went back to work today and has work tomorrow and Friday. I also need to get out the VVA donation bright and early tomorrow morning, so I will need to hit the sack right after putting John down for the night. Hope you are doing well! God Bless!

Not Quite There Yet...

Sorry it has been so long since I've written! But after I sent my last post a lot has happened!

First of all, May 26th at 6:24pm, John Wesley Lacock was born! He weighed 7 lb. 10 oz and was 19 1/4 in. long. My water had broke at about 3 in the morning, but I didn't realize it till I got up about 6:30. I walked around for a little while to make sure and then woke up Jacob. I called the Midwives and they said that if nothing happened on it's own by 9 that I could come in and discuss options of what to do. We were at the Hospital by 9 and once we got in we decided to induce since nothing was happening. They started the pitocine at 11:20, took them forever to get an IV started because I was so swollen, they poked me 6 times before finally decideing to put the IV in a central vein in my inner arm (where they usually draw blood). Once they got that in things started pretty slow. The midwife wanted to take it easy and Jake and I just sat around for like 4 hours watching TV and movies on his PSP. Things started to role about 3 or so and I was getting so uncomfortable that I decided to go w/ an epidural. After that I pretty much didn't feel anything until it was time for me to push. Even w/ the epidural the contractions were getting painful, so the midwife decided to check and decided I was really to push! Only took 20 min. this time. Unfortunately on the way out John's left clavical was broken, though it seems to be healing nicely now!

With the epidural I had I couldn't use my legs, took until the next morning for me to be able to stand w/out my right leg giving out. That's a weird experience! We planned to head home after John's last Biliruben test the next evening, but when they checked they found that his levels were a bit high so we ended up staying until Sunday night. John spent 18 hours under the blue lights to get his levels down and I spent every 2-3 hours feeding him to help him get things flushed from his system! Anyway, it all worked and we came home Sunday night, were in by 10. Got the first semi-peaceful nights rest in three nights! Was nice to be back in my own bed!

Monday we all seemed to get a slow start to the day. I was really hurting because I hadn't been able to get my pain meds filled and still didn't get them filled till about 3 in the afternoon. We had to take John in for one last Biliruben test Monday to make sure his levels were okay, which they were, so we came home.

This recovery for me is taking quite a lot longer than I remember w/ the other two. I remember being up and around and other than a little soreness w/ Anna, none w/ David pretty much bouncing right back into the swing of things. But this time around things are different and I'm not exactly sure why!? My back has been killing me since the epi. wore off! Not at the sight, but my upper and lower back radiating down into my hips. The pain meds don't seem to cut it every time, though Thursday after a horrible, horrible morning I seemed to perk up and felt 100%. Cleaned the upstairs bathroom, downstairs movie room, did a load of wash, and even organized the master bedroom a bit. Hopefully this is all temporary, which is what the anasthesiologist said when I talked to her about how much I was hurting. If things don't get better by next Friday I think I'm going to take the 2 week check-up for me to get this whole thing for me evaluated...

Jake went to work Tuesday to take his PT test. He was so excited, he did 50 push-ups, 67 sit-ups and ran the mile and a half in a little over 10 min. We all basically just hung around the house that day, though I made John's appointments for his 2 day Well Baby, and for his Echo-cardiograhm.

Jacob took from Wednesday-Tuesday the 6th off. So Wednesday, Jacob, David, and I took John to his Well Baby check-up. Everything looked great and we got a referral to go to John's Echo the next day. I think Sara and I went and got groceries that afternoon.

Jacob has been going to get Anna from school this last week. He takes her bicycle and has her ride it back home. I'm not sure how she likes it, Anna hasn't really made any comments about it.

Thursday I put Anna's sack lunch together for her Field Trip to the Zoo w/ her Kindergarten class. It was a really big lunch! I had picked up some treats for her to take in her lunch, watermelon, baby carrots w/ ranch, and some cookies. Jacob made her a bologna and cheese sandwhich w/ miricle whip. However, Anna doesn't like mw and only took like two bites of her sandwich. Almost everything else was gone. Aparently she had a good time, but we weren't sure that she was going to get picked up from school on time. The bus was suppose to get back around 2 and Sara was going to pick her up. However, the Boys and I had to go to John's Echo. We left at Noon and didn't get back till 4. Sara was having a crisis w/ Jade who had apparently caught something and was throwing up all over the place. Once things settled down a little and they both got cleaned up she was able to go and pick up Anna. Anyway, John's Echo-cardiograhm found that he no longer has the hole in his heart! He is a healthy baby boy! So we don't have to go in for any follow-ups or anything! Just regular baby check-ups!

Friday, yesterday, we didn't do much...though I found out that my friend Jeannie had her baby at about Noon on Thursday (she wasn't due till the 4th). She had a little boy, Marcus Anthony, via c-section because apparently in the last week or so he turned and was breech. She seemed to be recovering pretty well, or at least sounded so over the phone...it had been 24 hrs since the baby was born. She said that they might be able to come home on Sunday morning. All depending on recovery I guess. I also got an e-mail from my friend Christel whom I had been wondering about! She was also exspecting, due May 30th, but she wrote and said she had had a little girl, Emily Madison, on May 15th and were still trying to get into the swing of things w/ a new baby, this is her first, and Jeannie's first as well! Other than the news from my friends nothing much else went on...

Friends have brought us meals the last couple nights, which has been wonderful! This is such a blessing, espeically when you haven't quite gotten your feet back under you yet! And Jake has been in food heaven because the last two meals were two of his favorites, lasagna and chicken pot pie! I definitely haven't had the energy by the evening to really think of even eating, but it works out great cause everyone else needs to eat!

Anyway, today is Saturday and again I don't believe we have any plans...Jake stayed up late last night, 3:30 am, and finally came to bed. Unfortunately the kids have been super noisy this morning and woke him up...I apologized, but found out that the kids actually weren't the ones who woke him up, it was the neighbors using power tools next door! Though that was funny because the kids were much louder than the power tools! Guess he's just really good at tuning out the kids when he wants some sleep!

Well, I better go. I probably need to feed John here soon and Jacob and I need to talk about what we want to do the next couple days while he still has time off! Hope you are all doing well and I'll try and respond to your e-mails here in the next day or two if I haven't already!

God Bless!!! :O)

Olive Garden and Home...

The Olive Garden was good (food, waiter, atmosphere) though after being there for about an hour I was really getting uncomfortable w/ lots of pressure. I had to roll my chair back and lounge back a bit, but I didn't feel better till we got back in the van and I could lounge even more and I'm even better now that I am home and can put my feet up as well...

As we drove back home we noticed the storm moving in... It wasn't quite here yet and we really needed to mow the front lawn, so Jake filled 'er up w/ gas and took care of that while I used the weed wacker and went around the edges. Looks so much nicer now!!! And now it's going to rain and water our nicely mowed lawn!!! It smells really nice too! I like the smell of rain!

Anna was going to jump on the tramopline before it rained, but her tummy hurt cause she ate so much. Filled up on paste, bread sticks, and salad. Though she is feeling better now and just had a slice of the cake that I made earlier...

I was quite upset after finishing the cake, Anna and I went in the bedroom to look over the activities that the Church is putting on for the kids this summer and Anna decided to go and check and see what David was doing. She starts yelling cause David is aparently into her cake...I rush in there and indeed he has pulled a couple chunks out of the side of the cake and has frosting in his hair. I was no happy! He was sent to his room to await his Dad's arrival from PT not to far in the future...

Now that we have all had our cake (except for David who doesn't get any today) I'm not sure what we are going to do. I think the kids and Jake are cleaning up the play dough mess that the kids made before we do anything. Might watch a show or play a game...we haven't really discussed it.

The storm is almost upon us...lightening and thunder. No rain yet...

Hope you have a good evening! Will write more soon!

39 wk OB visit and More

Well,

My OB visit wasn't as promising as I had hoped though I had the lady do something to hopefully help spur things on, but so far it doesn't feel like it has helped.

Jake wasn't sure about work today and turns out he isn't going, but still needs to head in for a PT taping. Which I thought was a video taping, but he actually just meant for measurements, silly me... :O) He should be taking off here pretty soon to get taped and then head back home so we can all take off for an early dinner at Olive Garden. That's where Anna decided she wanted to eat. And I got Anna's cake baked, just need to flip it over and frost it. It's actually turned out to be a strawberry (bunt) cake and we'll be putting white frosting w/ sprinkles mixed in to top! Anna was okay w/ it. They didn't have the strawberry frosting at the smaller Walmart so I had to get something different. Anna thinks the sprinkles are cool!

Sara and I watched the Season Finale of 'Lost'. These show really tick you off sometimes, they leave you w/ so many questions that you aren't going to get answered till probably Sept. I mean what's up w/ that. I mean if you like the show you're going to tune in next Season, so why do they have to leave you hanging all summer, that's just mean!

Jake just took off for the PT thing...if he gets in really quick he should get back home by 3:30 and we can probably make it to Olive Garden by 4ish.

No plans for this evening. Not sure what Anna is going to want to do. We don't have any shows taped or new movies rented. We might sit down and watch some more Rune Soldier. We started the Series the other night, but didn't watch more than two episodes.

Tomorrow X-Men III comes out! I am really looking forward to seeing it! I'm not sure if we are going to take Anna or not, but if we do we'll have to find a sitter for David and Jade because they probably won't sit through it...Not sure who to ask though...especially because Jade doesn't really know any of my friends well enough...Not sure how she would do...We'll see. Might just split up and watch them two to two. Not sure who would go w/ who though.

This weekend is looking pretty boring for us. We have no plans what-so-ever, so that will be four days of nada going on! I'm actually not looking forward to it, that is unless the baby comes and then we'll definitely have something to do!!! Anyway, I'm sure we'll come up w/ something...will let you know what we decide on!

That's all for now...hope you have a wonderful day! God Bless~

Awana Awards Night

Wow,

I can hardly believe that tonight is the last night of Awanas! This is the Awards night for the kids and Jake, Anna, and I will be attending for Anna to receive her Book Award (she completed her Skipper book). Hopefully it won't last too long, but I believe that they alotted the time to go about the length of a normal Awana night, so about 6-8.

This morning Jake left a little later for work since he has to attend a meeting that will make him be at work till probably 4:30 or later. He took Anna to school on his way to work and I need to go and pick her up in about 1 hr. Boy time is flying this morning!

Got the dishes going this morning and ate a bowl of cereal as a snack. Sara and Jade got up and ate breakfast, now we are sitting around discussing the events for tonight and tomorrow.

Tomorrow is Anna's 6th Birthday. She has school and I'm not sure if Jacob will be taking the full day off or not. He keeps changing his mind. Aparently they have started taping the people before PT for some reason and he said he needs to be there, but if he was taking the day off anyway he doesn't have to attend any work related functions! Back to Anna's Birthday...I plan to make a strawberry cake w/ strawberry frosting, but I forgot to pick up the stuff again when I went to Walmart yesterday...need to go and do that some time today!!!

I found some gifts for the girls at Awanas. I just need to wrap them now! I think these actually work better then all the other ideas that I went through...Hope they like them...

Should probably go...will write more soon!

Reason For Starting This Blog...

WARNING!!!

Due to the Potentially Harsh wording of this posting by wanting to let you know the exact reasons behind what I do and how I really feel... There is High Risk of your feelings being bruised or injured... Read At Your Own Risk...!!!

Lately I have been dealing with a lot of personal issues that I don't wish to discuss and my latest e-mails asking people not to ask me questions was an attempt to give myself a break from having to relay just how bad I feel every time I'm asked... "How are you, how are you feeling?". Having to answer this question stirs up emotions that I don't wish to feel all the time and unless I am not asked the question or just ignore the person (which is rude), I won't be released from the un-ending circle of emotional chaos on my part!!! I understand that people care and want to know how I am, and if I wish to tell you I will in my own time! I'm tired of being judged and or feeling like I'm being judged! This is a hard pregnancy for me and I'm not feeling like myself and I wish people could just understand that and just pray for any concerns they may have about Baby or me w/out constantly asking me, causing me to think on things that I'm trying to block from constant thought for my emotional sanity!!! I don't care if being emotional is fine with some people, but for me I don't wish to cry constantly and be an emotional wreck all day, it's hard enough to get things done each day without being a well spring of un-ending emotion! This is how I feel and it is my right to have these feelings because I am me and you aren't me! So don't judge me or think that being an emotional wreck is okay, because it may be for you, but it isn't for me!!! I need to have some control over my life and if emotions are the only area that I think I can get that control right now then so be it...so if I ignore your "How are you?". You already know the answer "Not good!" Again, this is how I feel and it is my right to have these feelings because I am me and YOU AREN'T ME!!!

I have also started this Blog because I am tired of people telling me that my e-mails are impersonal and inappropriate! I am not going to apologize for the way my e-mails are, I am just going to put all of that information for access into this Blog and if you wish to read about what I/we are up to you can log on here and read as much or little as you want! I like to write!!! I LOVE to write!!! I like to let everyone know what I am doing, every little detail... It makes me feel like I'm including you in my life! And if you know every little thing that is going on then you know me and my family! I shouldn't have to apologize for wanting you to be apart of my life, or sending the detailed group e-mails that I send. I send the group e-mails because if I wrote each and every person on my list (15+) individually to let you know all that I am doing, that is all that I would do all day long! Yes, I have time to get on and check my e-mail many times a day...I find the time to let you know what I am up to and how I am feeling because that is important to me! As for the impersonality of my e-mails, like I said I don't have the time to write everyone individually the e-mails that I send out. It's not that I don't send out personal e-mail, it's just that I have no idea what to ask you about because I rarely get e-mails about what you are up to, so with out asking the same questions over and over again (being rude in the process) those would be very boring, monontonous e-mails! Like I said, I don't ask you questions usually because you don't write me. I rarely let an e-mail sent to me go unanswered/responded to! I respond to what you have said and ask more questions! This is how correspondance should be! I tell you something, you comment and ask more questions adding personal details about your life! I respond back to your e-mail making comments, asking/answering questions, and including more details about my life and so on and so forth! If you write me, I will write you back! If you ask me questions or make comments/ suggestions, I will respond back! I will write you, but you have to write me to make the whole correspondance thing work! I KNOW this doesn't apply to everyone, because some of you do write, but this whole e-mail thing is important to me, it's 1 of only 2 hobbies for me and all the criticism I've been getting lately prompted the "No E-mail, e-mail." So I'm sick of it!!! E-mail is important to me and I will continue to write..., but my e-mails will probably be fewer due to this new Blog! However, the frequency of e-mails depends too, on you and how often I get e-mails from you!!!

And too, I would like to add that e-mail isn't the only writing I do. I send cards to many of you and get few responses back to those as well...so the whole 'communication is key' standard to live by, seems to not be as high a priority for some people. How are relationships suppose to survive if you don't communicate with one another?! I care about all of you, that's why I e-mail, that's why I send cards!!! I CARE ABOUT YOU!!! I want to know how you are and what you are doing! I want to be involved in your life, even if all I do is read about it! I know we are all busy, that sometimes events that happen through out the day take up all our precious time, but it is my priority to let you know all about me and my family! Plus I find writing out my days events quite relaxing!

I know this posting may be harsh, but if you don't know the reasons behind what I do, or the way I feel about all the crap I've been getting for what I do...then you don't know me at all!

I do hope that you continue to read my posting here so that I can include you in my life, but now you have the option to read or not without being bumbarded by all my daily details...it's your choice...